Tuesday, January 20, 2009

The more you look in the mirror, the more your going to be asking yourself, "Why can't I be more beautiful?"

This picture looks so good with my blog. Am I right?
I do that allot. I look in the mirror, studying my face, and pointing out the imperfections. I have to remind myself constantly that God made me for who I was, and no matter what anyone else thinks, God thinks I'm beautiful. It's so hard to shove the thoughts out of my mind though. All of the "What ifs" always squeeze themselves into my thoughts. "What if I was Taylor Swift? What if I was beautiful like her? Why didn't God make me like her?" I found something out...in this world, we strive for beauty. And that's all the world wants. Beauty and perfection, but really it's just computer airbrushing and fake photo's. So when you look in a magazine, you see this model with a perfect face. But God didn't make her that way. The computer did. We all have imperfections because we sin. We aren't perfect, and never will be until we get to Heaven. But the things that teenagers have to deal with is so stupid, and really rough. If you don't have the perfect clothes or the perfect phone, if your wearing or doing something that isn't in your gonna get criticized. Sorry I'm being really religious on this post (There's nothing wrong with God talk...) I've just got allot on my mind. Do any of you feel like you have this voice in your head that's good, and one that's bad? Well I have that...I think everyone does, some people just don't pay attention to the voice. I think my conscious is the Holy Spirit, and the bad voice in my head is the devil. (BTW My consciouses name is Meli...my bad one is Edward.) I think that the good voice in my head is my way of talking to God. Do you think that's what it is? I hope it is...because I've been feeling so disconnected from Him. It's like He's not even listening to me. I'm not getting any feedback. Do you think there's a time in your life when God ignores you to see if your loyal to Him? It says nothing about that in the Bible. So I don't think He would ignore us at all. He loves us...I remember when I was about 10, I had this crazy idea that maybe God made me by mistake. I was so upset, (Mostly because I just started have my first period's and that is a BAD time to mess with me) and I felt so alone. I remember I didn't have that many friends too...I also used to be fat. But then I took a certain type of medicine and lost WAY TOO MUCH weight. I was almost underweight. but I've gained a few pounds back (Yaaay, and I'm still skinny! I never wanna go in the fat lane again!) But I still am very self-conscious. But most girls are theses days. They wonder if they are pretty enough, or if there's something that could make them prettier. (That's why makeup is flying of the shelves at Wal-Mart) I'm still going through the makeup stage...hey and what do you all think of Obama? I think he's OK...the only thing I don't like about him is that he thinks abortion is OK...have I already mentioned that? Well..it's late...Goodnight...



Blogger Jillian said...

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January 20, 2009 at 9:48 PM  
Blogger Emj13 said...

Yeah, food poisoning isn't fun, but I think eventually I'll be able to eat Taco Bell again. LOL

I'm sure you knew this but the singer for FM Static also sings for Thousand Foot Krutch. I like them too, but they're a completely different kind of music.


January 21, 2009 at 6:45 AM  
Blogger Emj13 said...

Thanks. I like the piano a lot. It's going well.


January 21, 2009 at 8:38 AM  
Blogger Jared said...

yeah,u are.

January 21, 2009 at 1:29 PM  
Blogger Jillian said...

Hey Ethie,
Seriously, no jokes, you are one of my favorite blogger buddies. *the is where the crowd goes "AWWW"*
LOL, you are just do dang funny.
Tag, tag, tag.

January 21, 2009 at 6:51 PM  
Blogger Allison said...

I know its suckes espessically when you really are ugly like me and have no excuses. But even a model can look in the mirror and hate herself. I think just the way American is, that if you not a size 2 with great hair skin ect your nobody and thats sad but its what its like here. Look at people in Africa they don't care i mean is society haha. I like Obama.

January 22, 2009 at 3:06 PM  
Blogger James said...

O.k, fact humans strive for perfection and beauty. But, this is the difference. I too have struggled with how I feel about my physical appearance. I am also fat, and have been told that I am plain, and not handsome at all, and not good looking or attractive or anything. This is the reality, everyone's idea of beauty is different. Someone may like green eyes more than blue eyes, and vice versa. There is no way to truly define beauty, only by what you see as it. And I think that you probably are. Next, no problem being fat, and there is no problem being underweight just as long as you are healthy. Anything else... hmm... O i know! I think that your conscious, the good and bad side, I think it is your choice to believe what you want to. Personally, we have different religious beliefs, but no issues there. I just think, instead of looking towards god, maybe look to your mom or an older sibling or a dad if you have one. And I like Obama and I think we should give him a chance, because he is our president. Sadly, I am pro choice. Another thing we can disagree on, but its ok. Agree to disagree. Take care. ^_^

January 22, 2009 at 4:31 PM  
Blogger Cursed♪♫ said...

Wow. This was an amazing post.
i feel that way too. like, i look into the mirror and i think what if i was prettier ? and you know, stuff like that. It's natural.
I even think that you know, there's a devil and a good in me. and they both want me to become like them, so so when i get angry or in short when i'm negative, i realize that the devil has won this game. and then the good tries to pull me...and so on ! i loved your post. it's awesome !!

January 23, 2009 at 12:29 AM  
Blogger Tunafish said...

I think that there is NOTHING WHATSOEVER that is wrong about posting about GOD. Nothing! The outward appearance isn't what matters. I guess you hear that a lot but seriously, I prefer a modest and humble person over a selfish and self appeasing person. Of course good looks attract men but a lot of the time for reasons that aren't appreciated. But I think that your personality is a jewel of beauty. And your Creator loves you more than life. He proved it! :)

April 13, 2009 at 7:48 AM  

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