Wednesday, April 15, 2009

♥ My life is so boring and I'm ugly and weird but God loves me! ♥

Although things haven't really been going that well, I'm trying to make the best of things. My mind has been bothering me ALLOT. It keeps telling me things that tear me up. Last night it was practically chanting that Alex hates me. But I know that he doesn't hate me know, because he hugged me LOTS at church :D SUPER DUPER HAPPY FACE!!!!!!!!!!! Also URI IF YOUR READING THIS YOUR AWESOME!! Also Emma, Jill, James, and anyone else who I forgot. I love you guys so much. not much has been going on. I got a new cage for the guinea pigs...and they love it! There's a little ramp and Kyoko loves climbing it Tee-Hee!!! Right now I'm listening to Fearless by Taylor Swift. As you can tell it's making me happy. :D This is the first time in awhile that I've felt good. And I've wanted to cut so bad, but then I imagine Alex's face and also God's, and it makes me want to stop and just think about whether or not it would be worth it. And I honestly don't really know why I'm so cheerful. Maybe it's because I've been sleeping in and I'm not tired or something...maybe it's because my sister smells fruity for some reason and is dancing while I'm writing this. LOL my brother is sorda in time out right now. He has to clean his room. OH and I have to tell you guys something. Ok I was at Sunday school and Alex came in and we were all talking about Adam and Eve. It was cool. All these weird questions came up and MY weird question was what if God is a girl? I mean what if He is? That would be cool. Hey look up the song God Is A Girl. That song made me wonder if he was. Ugh this post is so boring. It's just me rambling. There's nothing good that goes on in my life it's so boring. Sunday is the most exiting day of my life, seriously. And that's kinda lame. Hey and do any of you own guinea pigs that fling their poop? Just wondering because I want to know if thats normal. I also got my stitches out. It itches so bad though. I showed Alex my leg at Sunday School and you could tell that he was concerned, it really made me happy. It was funny, There was a crowd of kids around me, asking me if my leg was ok. It made me feel IMPORTANT and LOVED and I haven't felt that in forever. I've been trying to respect my family better and I still don't feel loved or respected back. And that know...I'm trying so hard and I'm not getting anything back. HAHAHAHAHAHAH HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol have any of you heard of Lash Blast? ITS ONLY THE BEST MASCARA IN THE WOOORLD HA!!!!!!!! And I'm sorda saving up for Lash Blast ultra. WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! Kyoko is sitting on my lap this very moment and she keeps sniffing me. Oh no now I smell fruity too...geez I'm such a geek and weirdo and I'm so fat and ugly but God loves me and that makes everything ok. And YAYAYAYAYAYAYA I CANT WAIT TO SEE ALEX AGAIN!!!! his dad is a preacher. I love his dad. :) Well I gotta go. ABCDEFG THE GUMMY BEARS ARE AFTER ME ONE IS RED ONE IS BLUE THE OTHER ONE JUST STOLE MY SHOE WHEN I CATCH HIM I WILL SUE THEN I WILL GET BACK TO YOU!!!



Blogger Tunafish said...

You don't think of my face influencing you to go again the evil thoughts that swirl around in the terrifying vortex of your mind (all minds are like that)?? Jk jk Yeah, it'd be pretty weird if GOD was a girl but I think that He (well) doesn't belong to a specific gender, He's in a category of His own. I guess that we associate Him with being male is because Jesus was a male. Idk And rambling is probably what I'm doing which is fun and stuff. In my blog I just ramble on and on and on so that's why only I can view it. :) Well just one of the reasons. Anyways I'm glad that GOD plays a pretty big part in your life cause without Him there's no life (metaphorically and literally the literal meaning not being boring :D) Hope your leg heals up!

April 15, 2009 at 11:16 AM  
Blogger Zaniac said...

Like your update! But I do miss the other one...

April 15, 2009 at 1:47 PM  
Blogger Zaniac said...

Oh, and good luck with your leg and The Alex! He he.

April 15, 2009 at 1:47 PM  
Blogger Emj13 said...

I'm sooooooo glad you're feeling happy! That's so really awesome!
That's cool that you got your stitches out, I'll be praying that they stop itching.
I love it that you always talk about church and sunday school. Sometimes I feel kind of weird because EVERY story I tell is church or youth group, because that's almost the only place I go. LOL I just wanted to tell you that I thought that was cool.
I think that God is not really a specific gender, because we're all made in his image, so he has everything we have and more. He's like both, in my opinion anyway.
I get what you mean about your life being boring! Sometimes I feel like I have nothing to write about, except my stupid guy troubles. Ugh! I hate him! LOL
Do you ever go to the skatepark? Just wondering. Okay, this is a long comment! I probably should just make it an email, but I'm too lazy. Hope you don't mind.:)

April 15, 2009 at 2:59 PM  

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