Did cutting really help me? Or was it just a way of venting?.......I like pie....

Yea, I asked myself that question last night...cutting is seriously addictive...WOW it's snowing so much in Indiana...HAHA me and my brother ate snow yesterday we had to go to the bathroom so bad after eating about 2 pounds of snow LOL. Hey and just wondering, do any of you feel like you just have to keep believing in something no matter how many times someone tells you to give up? That's me...I really want to find my birth mom, and I'm old enough I AM. But I don't think I'm ready to meet my birth dad though. I hope their still living in Indiana. I know I talk about them allot, but their just always on my mind. Hey and you know what emo is? LOL it's allot less dark then goth, it's much more Harry Potter. I got that from a friend. You guys have to read this!_A REAL BOYFRIEND_When she walks away from you mad - [Follow her]When she stares at your lips - [Kiss her]When she pushes you or hits you - [Grab her and don’t let go]When she starts cursing at you - [Kiss her and tell her you love her]When she's quiet - [Ask her what’s wrong]When she ignores you - [Give her your attention]When she pulls away - [Pull her back]When you see her at her worst - [Tell her she's beautiful]When you see her start crying - [Just hold her and don’t say a word]When you see her walking - [Sneak up and hug her waist from behind]When she's scared - [Protect her]When she lays her head on your shoulder - [Tilt her head up and kiss her]When she steals your favorite hat - [Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]When she teases you - [Tease her back and make her laugh]When she doesn’t answer for a long time - [reassure her that everything is okay]When she looks at you with doubt - [Back yourself up with the TRUTH]When she says that she likes you - [she really does more than you could understand]When she grabs at your hands - [Hold hers and play with her fingers]When she bumps into you - [bump into her back and make her laugh]When she tells you a secret - [keep it safe and untold]When she looks at you in your eyes - [don’t look away until she does]WHEN SHE MISSES YOU - [SHES HURTING INSIDE]When you break her heart - [the pain NEVER EVER really goes away]When she says its over - [she STILL wants you to be hers]- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything- DON'T let her have the last word- NEVER call her hot! Pretty and beautiful is sooooo much better!- Say you love her more than she could ever love you (mean it)- Argue that she is the best girl ever (mean it)- When she says she's OK don’t believe it, talk with her- When she says she's sorry, she truly means it- Because 10 yrs later she'll remember you- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up- Treat her like she's all that matters to you- Tease her and let her tease you back- Stay up all night with her when she's sick- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid- Give her the world- Let her wear your clothes- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her- Let her know she's important- Kiss her in the pouring rain&& When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;"Who's butt am I kicking today baby?"
That is so sweet, I can even describe it LOL. That's the kind of boyfriend I want...and I also want him to be emo LOL.

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